Have you ever had a situation drop in your lap that left you terrified? A situation that brought questions like, “How are we going to get through this?” and “What are we going to do now?” and “How do I begin to trust God?”
I’ve found myself crying a lot recently. Scared of the future, scared of change, and simply anxious. And through all my worry, I can still hear His still small voice calling me to trust. I can feel His peace wrap around me like a security blanket. I know He’s with me. He is preparing the way before me. (Deut. 31:8)
So why can’t I simply let go and trust? What do I need to do to surrender to Him? He’s come through before, and He’ll come through again. Why is this such an issue for me? The answer to all of these questions are rooted in one thing: my identity. How? Bear with me a moment, if you will.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve often struggled with insecurity when it comes to my relationship with God. In the past I have been guilty of distancing myself from Him, all because I don’t feel worthy. Or, I don’t feel like He would accept me with all my flaws. But the truth is, He will. When you come before Him with a open, repentant heart, He will rejoice over you as the father did over his prodigal son.
Actually, that whole parable is meant for us. We are the prodigal son. We mess up over and over again, but our Father will still take us. And because I know that, I have no excuse for not trusting Him. There I said it. I have no excuse. God is God, and He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. (Heb. 13:8) His promises are true and He is faithful.
If we have no excuse, how do you trust God with the unexpected in your life? And what does that have to do with my identity?
You trust Him in steps, just as you would build your faith. So get into the Word every day. Study His faithfulness to the Israelites. Observe His great, fantastic love for us through the life of His Son. Study the promises made to us in the New Covenant. Take your first step toward trusting Him better.
If I’m insecure in my relationship with God, the root problem lies in my identity. Not God. You see, everything you do flows out of how you perceive yourself. It comes down to your self worth, your confidence, who you believe you are. So, if your identity is marred with lies and false conceptions, you aren’t going to feel safe. How can we change this? By looking to the Word of God and discovering what He has to say about us.
Jesus left heaven and came down to Earth so that you and I could spend eternity with Him. He suffered a horrible death and unjust punishment all out of love for you. He’s passionate about you! The New Testament has so much to say about who we are when we’ve accepted Christ into our hearts. I encourage you to read through Galatians. Paul explains it so well, much better than I could try to here.
The other part of this is that once you begin to familiarize yourself with the character of God, He won’t seem so distant and “scary.” In fact, He’ll become a friend and father to you. If you aren’t pursuing a relationship with someone, sharing intimate things can be intimidating. But, if that person is your best friend, it isn’t. Why? Because you know them. Make God your best friend. Get to know Him and let Him into your heart. He already knows all things, yes, but the act of submitting to Him and letting Him in makes it different somehow. When you understand who you are and the new creation you’ve been made into, it changes your personal perception of yourself.
Then trust God with the little things so that you can trust Him with the big things. You can’t go from being untrusting to believing God to come through on your rent. Your faith will crumble, which is why you need to build those spiritual “muscles.” Think about it, if you were to go to the gym right now you couldn’t lift a hundred pounds. (Unless of course you’ve been training for that.) But it is once you’ve started with five pounds, graduated to ten, and so forth that you’re able to lift that weight. You don’t start with the greatest, you start small.
“He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much.” Luke 16:10 (NKJV)*
I’ll close with this last thought. Nothing surprises God. Whatever it is you’re facing, He saw this coming long ago. He has a plan. Hold on to Him and He’ll comfort you. You will get through this. If you apply these things, your faith and your relationship with God will grow. Soon you’ll be well grounded and rooted in truth. Remember that you’re not alone facing this. Seek Godly counsel and community to support you and pray for you. No one is meant to be alone! I pray this has blessed you.