This morning, I found myself rocking my son in relative silence. Everyone had left and, for the first time in several days, we had a few, intimate moments to ourselves. As he slept, I found myself falling into prayer and quickly became aware of a sin I was not aware I had committed. Scripture speaks of these “hidden sins.” David cries out to the Lord in the Psalm asking for the hidden things to be revealed in his heart. It’s a prayer I’ve desired to pray more frequently, but this morning, the “hidden” way of my heart stopped me in my tracks. God was offended that I said he was merely “enough.”
But he said to me, “My grace is enough for you. When you are weak, my power is made perfect in you.” So I am very happy to brag about my weaknesses. Then Christ’s power can live in me. (2 Corinthians 12:9 NCV)
2 Corinthians 12:9 settled into my Spirit and, while I understand the sentiment of what is being said here, the Still Small Voice pressed me deeper. Sufficient, as many translations put it, is merely a fancier way to say, “enough.” God is well equipped to be our “enough,” but he’s also in the business of being so much more.
We know God is big, but how often do we make the choice to actively believe it?
Do we approach marriage with the idea that God is joining us as one to do great and mighty things? Is our mothering full of larger-than-life prayers, believing all the while that God will carry us above the waters? Have we approached our finances with the idea that God is going to do something powerful? Do you approach the future with big dreams or do we limit ourselves to what we think we can reasonably accomplish on our own?
If we’re honest with ourselves, I think the answer tends to be, “No.” Instead of acknowledging the God who holds the world as big, we believe what the world tells us. We succumb to the half-hearted worship that limits God’s power and dampens our faith.
Despite all of this, our limited view of God is not his legacy. Decades of history compound to remind us that he is much more than our tiny brains can comprehend. And he wants us to see him for all he is.
Jesus Christ, the Lover of my soul, desires to be so much more than “enough.” I was convicted of limiting my Jesus to being only what I needed in the moment when, in fact, he surpasses my need in this lifetime and beyond. Our human nature prefaces us for small-mindedness. Instead of acknowledging God as incomprehensible and beyond our wildest imagination, we limit him to small doses. But our God is not small. No, my dear sisters. To God, we are the small ones. And he has already allotted storehouses of grace to get us through even the toughest of days.
“Your burden is heavy, My yoke is light.” Scripture reminds us of this truth, but do we embrace it? Christ calls us to step forward by faith and leave behind all that ensnares us.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2 NIV)
Christ went the extra mile so that we could walk in victory. He did the impossible, paving the way for big prayers and even bigger faith. God wants to do amazing things in our lives. Not for our sake, but for his glory. We must see him as more than enough, otherwise, we will never rise above our current situation. We will endure and survive, but we will not experience the level of freedom and joy he sets before us.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. (Psalm 23:5 NIV)
Everything we need is already covered by his marvelous plan. Stepping into grace and embracing his joy is the gift he is offering us. When we acknowledge him as all he is – more than enough – we are welcoming opening the storehouses to what he is offering us.
This is not the prosperity gospel. Salvation and choosing to believe God as the big Being he is will not necessarily warrant wealth and success in this lifetime. And even if it does, that should never be our goal. Instead, we can be assured that we will have more than enough to get through each and every day. We are guaranteed a place at the table and peace in even the toughest moments. By believing he is more than enough, we are welcoming immeasurable grace into our lives. Things that money can’t buy and blessings that will last more than a lifetime.
If we can only comprehend the tiniest bit of God’s greatness, we would never worry. We would never fear and we would look toward the future with excitement. For we serve a great God whose purposes are beyond anything we could ever imagine.
Forgive me for putting You in a box. Forgive me for rendering You small. Teach me to rest in your grace and acknowledge you as the great God You are. Amen.